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Sorry tumblr, but this is the only place where I can talk to myself. HA. I’M LETTING GO. Not forgetting, but living my life for my own good start now. To say that I’m tired of waiting for you guys is a lie. But I’ve decided that it’s about time that I make my own self as a priority. I’m just prepping myself. I’m finally coming to conclusion of my isolation from the society and letting myself enjoy life even though it’s without you guys. I guess you’re right Jan. It is better this way. It is better so that we can actually focus and better ourselves. You said that I’ve always been good and I will always be a success with all my upheaval. But you don’t know is that it’s because of you and Jemma also. It’s you guys and my parents. Only, because I’m single. LOL. But you know what I mean. Every time I fail, whether it’d be academically or just in general.. I know I can always run to you guys for a sense of calm and just simple fun. I always do good because I aim to better myself not for myself but for my parents and to our future as a family. I wanna be there when you guys need my help with no hesitations just like what you do to me when I crash and burn. I thank you guys for being my foundation of strength and you’ll still be my foundation of strength but in some other way now. HAHA, to think I decided to write this as closure. From this day forward, I promise myself and I promise you guys that all I do is for my own good now. I’m not gonna turn into a jerk or anything but this time I wanna do things the way I want it. I’m gonna pave my way to my own self happiness. I’ll miss you guys, a lot. I know you’re still there but knowing I won’t be spending as much time and do the regular daily habits that we all do together is rough. Even though it feels like my tooth is getting pulled again, I’m guessing it’s safe to say that I’ll be okay without you guys. So I hope you guys can handle yourself there, I hope you guys are treated nicely there, I hope you guys are happy, I hope you guys are in good health, I hope you guys are making your life worth it, and I hope you’re making every chance you have to better yourselves. I love you Jan and Jemma. As much as I want to say to “stay the same” I wont. I want you guys to learn from your past mistakes and make value of it. No matter how far we are apart, both of you will still be instilled in me.
Yes, we’re pretty much the best together.
